The Evolution of My Spirituality
Looking back over my past, I can see how certain events that occurred have led me to where I am now, how they are connected. However, it wasn’t until I sat down to write this article, that I never really looked at how those same events have evolved my spirituality. My core beliefs have not changed, just the framework.
I grew up in a middle class, devout Lutheran home. Somehow I always felt something missing about the Lutheran religion. I couldn’t put my finger on it at the time. My parents insisted that we attend church and Sunday school every week. Once I grew up and moved away from home, my connection to the Lutheran Church became less significant in my life.
In the late 80’s, I became more knowledgeable about the Catholic Church through the Dominican Republic Experience (DRE). It was a third world exposure program, partially funded by the Catholic Church. In the program, participants lived with poor Dominican families. For all participants and even the organizers, it had a huge impact, especially learning how with very little material wealth, their lives were rich in love and joy amid a sea of corruption and social injustice.
During the program, I felt that Catholicism to be even more stringent than the Lutheran Church. It felt very much like the Catholics were saying that their way was right and the rest of the world was wrong. But the program evolved. Past participants became involved in organizing the experience, wanting to assist other youth in learning more about social injustice in the Third World. The experience became more ecumenical, more open to those of other religions and beliefs.
The DRE was my first exposure to the Third World and was such an eye opener for me. The experience taught me to open my heart, mind and soul to new ways of looking at the world I live in, not taking things for granted and discovering what is truly important in life.
In the mid nineties, my path led me to even more new and different ways of looking at the world with the introduction of the book, “The Celestine Prophesy”. I had (and still do) have an insatiable thirst for knowledge. It led me to trusting and developing my intuition, reading tarot cards, seeing energy and auras around myself, plants and animals, hiking through the woods, a deeper appreciation of nature, reiki and quantum physics, UFO’s -- all of these contributed and shaped the formation of my spirituality.
Since moving to BC in 1999, the evolution has continued, but at a much faster rate. My understanding of the connection between all of us is deeper, my connection to nature is strengthened with drumming in the forest and creating a medicine wheel in our backyard (see June 2004 Issue).
Last June was a very emotional time for me because my 2 year old kitten, Kaydee almost died (see Aug 2004 Issue). My friends, Laurie Johansen, Laurie Ross and I, while in quiet contemplation, received guidance from the backyard medicine wheel - messages to help us, but messages especially for me through this tough time.
After the whole thing was over, I was having a conversation with my devout Lutheran mother. I was explaining to her the lessons for me that came through from the medicine wheel. I told her how this whole situation with Kaydee was a test for me. I had to pick a side; either be positive that Kaydee would survive, sending her love, light and healing energy, or remain focused in my fears, doubts, even anger. The medicine wheel told me to choose a side. She said, uh, huh.
I told her that I received more messages from the trees while drumming in the forest. The initial test, I passed, but that the test was not over! It was something I had to constantly work on and live by. She said, uh, huh.
I told her that it doesn’t matter how you define the source of the insight – whether from the medicine wheel, from the trees or rocks, from my guides or angels, messages from the animals, while meditating, my higher self or my conscience – it is really all the same source: god. The bible says that god is everywhere, in everything, that we are created in God’s image. That she could agree upon.
My spirituality has evolved – evolved more towards the Native Aboriginal and ancient ways. I see the relationship between human beings, the land, and all of Creation. We are all one and all related. Not just human beings, but all four-legged brothers and sisters, as well as those who crawl, fly and swim. We, too, are related to, and part of our Mother, the Earth, and everything on her including the rocks, trees and plant kingdoms.
Spirituality comes from within. It is the essence of who you truly are. The Medicine Wheel symbolizes the individual journey we each must take to find our own path and define our own Spirituality. Whatever your definition of spirituality, live each and every day with the integrity of your beliefs, how you define yourself and the world you live in.